I'm having the worst time lately it seems.. and yet the best I've ever had.

I'm sure I've been labeled emo by a few of you, and to be honest I couldn't give a fuck less.

I'm done trying to please everyone.
I'm done being what everyone wants me to be.

I'm taking my pills, I'm doing my best to be a better me, and dammit I'm fighting for it.

If you're really my friend anything saying so would be great.. I know certain person on here was told to read this and Brittany this part's for you:

I'm sorry for what I've pushed onto you, it's selfish of me to try to ask you to do something you can't. I've just always figured that anyone who thought I was important would fight for me, but I never really thought how difficult it would be for those people to go against what they believe in. So what I wanna say is..

I'm sorry.

I so much just want the girl I "bought" back in 10'th grade. The same girl who always cheered me up when I finally opened up about "him". Lol the same crazy girl who ran away with me to six flags (Monster plantation!), but I know it's something I have to wait for, but friends are worth the wait in my eyes. I'm going to be a friend.. I'm going to wait :]!

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Sorry to all of those who don't get that.. It's something I've needed to say, but been reluctant to.


I'm taking my life back, and anyone who gets in the way isn't even worth enough to be considered a "bump in the road".

If you care, be happy, smile, and just be a friend.

On a completely unrelated note:

I'm doing my drawings again, I'm painting, I'm writing, and even self photography.. I still believe cameras are evil and steal your soul but I guess.. that sharing pictures are a way to spread that little piece of lost soul around to everyone else.