Ill-Be-Here-Always

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Testament To You by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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Testament To You

What is a cadence If not more than just a noise A simple song and dance Under this midnights poise I wonder sometimes like I always do "Is it really what you want, or what I want you to" But in the end it's all a thought A passing shot through my mind Something easily store bought And never anything important enough to bind Will I be your cadence forever Will I be the guy of your dreams Or am I just the noise you turn down And the sleeplessness you try to drown

Tears Streaming by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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Tears Streaming

I can see the tears streaming down your face Makeup smeared and nowhere to call your place For once I want a smile, a laugh, a hug, a kiss In the end all I can do is dream of you and wish for one more kiss So I'll just sit here with my fake smile I'll tell you all I'm fine When in then everything I say is a lie And all I can do is hope one day I die I'll run away as far as I can Run till the day my legs give and the day I can't even stand "...please save me?"

The Perfect Girl? by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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The Perfect Girl?

I had a dream of you Last night in bed I hope you dream too And thoughts of me run through your head I dreamt of of eyes like the sea Hair like a fire Right next to me And together we'd tire Never caring what went on As long as we were one Never had a thought that went wrong And together always strong If only she knew She was still on my mind Maybe then she too Would add rhythm to my rhyme.. "Your cadence forever..~"

Somewhere.. by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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Somewhere..

Somewhere in your head There's a thought you don't want to be Everywhere you go All you'll ever think about is me So now I'm running fast I don't wanna think about you.. (Don't wanna think about you) Somewhere in your soul There's a hole you can't stand to see Everything you want Is a lie and makes no sense to me So now I'm laying down I can't even remember you.. (Don't wanna think about you) Somewhere in my mind I had a thought that might you A girl I just can't stand And never stopped starving my heart through So here I am alive I don't want to be around you.. (Don't wanna think about you)

Your Show by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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Your Show

I let you in You took a seat To watch the film Described as "Me" From beginning to end My life was shown To start this trend And minds all blown Are you happy how I turned out Are you sad about my life Running through thoughts of doubt And how I struggled through the strife You now know my secrets And how my mind's been torn I'm not the same guy Because now trust is born You now hold my thoughts My life is yours to keep My, heart though broken and distraught, As you lay with me to sleep

What I Really Need.. by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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What I Really Need..

I don't need your money or cars Your lights to scare the dark away Your music, your friends or the bars All I need is the one I'm still alive for The one whom I will strive for The one who can carry my sins (and here I will begin..) Cause I don't need your money or cars Your lights to scare the dark away Your music, your friends or the bars I just need the warmth of your touch The one I love so much The girl who can dry up my tears (The one who can bare with my fears) I'm still waiting Waiting for the girl whom I knew I'm still waiting Because all I ever needed was you.

Writing by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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Writing

Writing through all my feelings Through the drought within my head Rhyming in this horrid way Wishing for the numbness we all dread Whisper silently to myself Hoping with everything that I not fall Permission I search for indefinitely To sing out my lowly call "I want my voice to be heard, to know what it's like to live! I want to whisper sweet serenades and point out all I hid" This simple chant I cry And now can't be undone I'm really screaming this poem Screaming for chance to stun Is it so wrong to want to be seen To be cast upon the world? Is it so hard to plea to the makers Or simply win a single girl I asking so mu

I.. by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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I..

I.. I hate the way you smile The way you wear your hair I hate how you know I'd drop it all If you said you care I hate how you massacre my thoughts And run rampant through my brain Destroy the monotony my life blocks and drum the rhythm of the rain I hate how you spoke to me And said you love me with those eyes I hate how I knew it'd hurt and hated more when I saw you cry I hate how our shot was so short Lasting only through the fall I hate how I can't stop thinking of you Because I could never hate you at all

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Testament To You by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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Tears Streaming by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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The Perfect Girl? by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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The Perfect Girl?

Somewhere.. by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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Your Show by Ill-Be-Here-Always, literature

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About Ill-Be-Here-Always

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July 28
United States
Deviant for 15 years
He / Him

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Self conscious.. be nice?

Current Residence: NEW JERSEY <3333
Favourite genre of music: Rock, Alt, Indy, Screamo (anything but country/rap)
Favourite style of art: Macabre, Digital Anime
Operating System: Vissstttaaaaaaa
Shell of choice: Skull Candy
Personal Quote: Umm.. haii!!!

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

I've been listening to a TON of Mayday Parade if that counts?

Favourite Writers

H. P. Lovecraft

Favourite Games

Final Fantasy series

Favourite Gaming Platform

Sony

Tools of the Trade

Charcoal = god :o

Other Interests

Programming, Gaming, Anime, anything nerdy..

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Ill-Be-Here-Always

Jan 3, 2010

Happy Birtday B.

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You know whou you are.. Don't kid yourself in thinkg I'd ever forget, or stop loving you.. Hope it's been amazing <3

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Ill-Be-Here-Always

Dec 10, 2009

Thank you!

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Well I'm finally back on today after a city-wide power outage, and I got a lovely surprise! I'm so glad you all enjoyed my poem, there's no way I can respond to all of you individually as there's 360+! I've never had huge hopes for any of my poems popularity-wise I've just said how I feel, it really is a confidence boost that so many enjoyed even one. So again to everyone who responded thankyou so much even just reading <3 Disclaimer: Many of you have noticed a similarity between my poem and "10 Things I Hate About You"'s poem. I'd like to state that this was NOT purposely done, I actually just had to re-watch the movie today to underst

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Ill-Be-Here-Always

Nov 27, 2009

As per request..

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Got your message, so of course I'll do anything you ask and you know it.. Umm, life's been... Well, I tried really hard to be a part of everything today (Thanksgiving), and even still I was treated as invisible. I'm just tired of trying to prove I exist in this house, and done trying to prove myself to these people. WAITING SUCKS! Damn you! You better be worth 2 years!! I want my friend back. In the back of my mind.. My deepest fear is that the next time we talk, I'll of lost you completely. If you respond to this the same way as last time.. something about this would be great.. I have some new songs to add to my playlist, so I'm hoping

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hiya

Love anime style

Have you tried doing them with fine line pens and illustrator markers? It's fun!

Ill-Be-Here-Always

Jun 8, 2009

I have, but I figure before I get into buying anything other than my Pencils and Charcoal I need to get better. I absolutely hate where I am right now as an artist, and I wanna get better >_<!

I still have a huge problem with foundation and symmetry (mostly symmetry of the face).

Always trying to find tutorials for Hair/hands that help me as well lol!

Forevers-Cadence

Jul 5, 2008

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.....u need a new journal

Ill-Be-Here-Always

Aug 12, 2008

I've made like 12 new ones xD

happy

Of course! I absolutely love your gallery